All of my friends went out tonight. I was supposed to go, but I fell asleep. When I finally woke up, I saw that no one tried to contact me. No messages, no phone calls, nothing.

I know I’m probably reading into it much, much more than I should. But lately I feel like I’m falling out of this particular group. And this is something I’m very sensitive to, since it’s happened before. I suppose it’s a danger of dating people within the group, which I’ve done. Sometimes people don’t know how to handle the aftermath.

This feeling will probably pass, but right now it’s compounded with other issues. I feel lonely at work, I feel lonely at home, and now I feel lonely even though I’m supposed to have so many friends. I know I’m having a pity party for myself. It’s just been a rough few months. Being dumped by the same person three times kind of does a number on one’s self esteem. Add feeling like your friends are moving away from you and it’s one hell of a downer.

I dunno. Maybe I should be moving away from this group of people. I get caught up in the drama.

Maybe I need new friends?